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Esse ano foi memorável.

Foram tantas coisas, riscos, mudanças. Despedi-me de minha avó, mas com ela muito aprendi e levo comigo todas aquelas lições. Terminei meu curso de bacharelado com grande orgulho, viajei mais, voltei ao taekwondo, troquei de emprego, finalmente aprendi o que me motiva e decidi parte do caminho que quero traçar nos próximos anos. Consegui deixar para trás aquilo que há tempos me trazia angústia. Alívio.

Eu aprendi e muito sobre mim, sobre aqueles ao meu redor. Longe de ser o suficiente.

The world is my oyster.

Sigo ansiosa por 2015.

A goddamn smile

Will you tell yourself you all must be what you'll be?
Who's to say who is who and what is what if you simply don't agree?
Now, time will come to claim you and it will have its way
Don't make mistakes and don't regret
Don't waste the time that is left
And then do it all with a goddamn smile

Dance, little liar

I’m a holy scriptwriter. I stand behind the curtain. I will know the words when the world stands to attention, when my speech bends to my will, when I know the precise position I’m to fill. I’m the one who’ll know: holy, hidden and all for show. I stand over the choir and redeem the difference. I try though sometimes I can only feign forgiveness: holy, for hire and not for sale. I am easily undone but by then, I’m gone. I’m a lender of lighters, a hangover survivor. I’m a terrible liar. In the shadow of thin-walled, whitewashed stone fabric, in the city of pre-worn, torn, pre-bought denim. I am the hand that grasps and longs and the one left suspended when all is withdrawn. I’m the crack in the altar, a stone statue waxed over. I’m a kid at the opera. I’m a terrible liar.

I'd rather be broken than empty

Time, time is a fickle thing
Let's see what it can bring
I cannot leave you behind
Time, time's running out
My hands, oh give me your hands
I cannot leave you behind

We are going to get out of here
Run from all the fears

What if?

What if our hard work ends in despair?
What if the road won't take me there?
What if to love and be loved's not enough?
What if I fall and can't bear to get up?
Oh, I wish, for once, we could stay gold

Hearts of Gold

all of my dreams, they fall and form a bridge
of memories where I can get back
to you

In all honesty

so honey, now don't be mad
time has told me it can't be that bad
and if it is, well I'll be goddamned
but I'll stick around
I'll be your master defender

public knowledge

you've spent a year staring into a mirror
another one trying to figure out what you saw
paid so much attention to what you're not
you have no idea who you are
but heaven knows that you're lying

the road

you know, it's a dark, twisted road we are on
and we are to walk it alone
I could drive out to the ocean and just stare in awe
I could walk across the beaches and sleep under the stars

a long time ago

but you couldn't wait
I couldn't promise you anything
if it was all a mistake
then I guess we're both to blame
I could've been so many things
but it would never be enough for you
I was the one you counted on
but I was never the one for you
now I know
I lost you a long time ago

there's hope, there's a silver lining

I don't want to wait anymore, I'm tired of looking for answers
Take me some place where there's music and there's laughter
I don't know if I'm scared of dying, but I'm scared of living too fast, too slow
Regret, remorse, hold on, oh no, I've got to go
There’s no starting over, no new beginnings, time races on
And you've just gotta keep on keeping on
Gotta keep on going, looking straight out on the road
Can't worry 'bout what's behind you or what's coming for you further up the road
I try not to hold on to what is gone, I try to do right what is wrong
I try to keep on keeping on
Yeah I just keep on keeping on
I hear a voice calling, calling out for me
These shackles I've made in an attempt to be free
Be it for reason, be it for love
I won't take the easy road
I've woken up in a hotel room, my worries as big as the moon
Having no idea who or what or where I am
Something good comes with the bad
A song's never just sad
There's hope, there's a silver lining

:)

el principio

yo seguiré adelante
atravesando miedos
sabe Dios que nunca es tarde
para volver a empezar

reciprocated

how much pain has cracked your soul?
how much love would make you whole?
you're my guiding lightning strike

I can't find the words to say, they're overdue
I've travelled half the world to say I belong to you

tunnel

and in the backyard
into the night
we walk through fire
my love is your flashlight

Probabilística

Talvez eu deva ser forte,
Pedir ao mar por mais sorte
E aprender a navegar.

boolean sanity = false

Maybe I like this roller coaster
Maybe it keeps me high
Maybe the speed it brings me closer
I could sparkle up your eye

predictability

if you're looking for the moon, is it ever when it's new?

entrelinhas

A-N-I-M-A-L
Makes my head pirouette
More than I would be willing to confess
D-A-N-G-E-R-O-U-S

2014

"Don't waste your time or time will waste you"